studies!!!!

ok i think u all might noe how i am feeling rite now...
mayb u hav went through tis b4
n mayb u hav not but i hav a thousand times
hav yr parents ever asked u on who r u stduying 4??
well mine hav...
n when i am studying
either my lil bro or my elder sis will oso b there or in a nother corner of the room oso studying...
my mum will usually 'puji' them wit a smile on their face..
but in the other hand..
4 me pulak...
she'll check on me the last..
n juz keeping giving me a lecture on how well my siblings study..
so like in my head...
i was juz saying or sumtimes even scolding my mum...
i always say the same thing..
i will say..
aren't i studying rite now...
can't u c there r books covering my table...
n i'm studying rite now..
r u blind or wat..
wat am i 2 do 2 at least get yr attention...
i am always the outcast in the family coz my academics r not as good as my sports...
i'm a more 2 sports student either than a studious student..
i'm more active in sports than in studies so wat....
y can't my mum juz let it b..
it's my future,my life n i think tat i should at least get sum privacy..
it juz isn't fair 2 compare between siblings..
i already can notice tat all my other siblings r better than me in studies
but hav u noticed..
neither 1 of them has ever gotten a medal 4 sports..
they will oni get awards 4 their achievements...
in each family there is sure an outcast
n in my family tat outcast is me..
i'm the most unloved,uncared,most scolded n given more responsibilities than the rest...
do they think i am a stranger or a maod 2 them...
is tis called as caring parents(my mum tat is..)
i hav more than enough problems in my life..
i noe u hav them too but my is worst coz i am still a student
not having a permanent job not having an work experiences at all

bcoz of u mum my 13 years of life hav juz been miserable especially tis year when i am form 1..
i noe tat u r juz loking out 4 me n wanting me 2 b smart but..
can u juz let me study on how i wan 2 study..
every1 has ways of studying...
i can't juz follow yr way...
tis is me,my brain,my life,my exam n my studies..
so like pliz
i juz BEG u 2
LEAVE ME ALONE 4 ONCE N JUZ LET ME B!!
4GET TAT I AM HOME
4GET TAT I EVEN EXIST TILL THE END OF THE EXAMS!!!
I JUZ WAN 2 B ALONE N NOT 2 B DISTURB OR INTERUPTED!!!