Left alone?!

well....past couple of days been kinda of emo!!
hav sum MAJOR probs!!
n 2 top both the probs of the couple of days is sumthing even worse
than getting a scolding from my mum n getting stressed up
it's being betrayed by my best friend
Michelle Amanda!!
the oni best friend i had there was her n both of us told each other our secrets but finally!!
she juz back stabbed me!!
i juz dun feel like living in this life anymore!
but bcoz of u!
i am feeling even more stressed up!

but dun u 4get i too hav yr secrets soooo i would juz b able 2 accidentally spill it out 2 yr mum...
n witout me getting hurt!
i know who u like n who u wanna b wit every single nano-second but bcoz of yr kepo-ness all of tat may not come true!!

u dun hav the rights 2 know wat is going on in my love-life rite!
n izzit a muz 4 u 2 tell everything out 2 yr frenzz!!

juz got no mood 2 talk 2 u....
i know how 2 handle my own life k!
dun b such a mum to every1

YOU know i tried controlling my feelings n all the bad words i wanna say!!
well....
I juz can't keep it inside anymore!!!
the oni i hav 2 say 4 u is tat!

yr a HORNY,BITCHY,MOTHER-F***ING BITCH,PUKI,CIBAI YOU!!
I DO RELI HOPE TAT U WILL NEVA EVER GO 2 HEAVEN OR WHEREVER!!
++(in addition)tis words all go the same 4 u Martin!!
n i can't blieve tat u would stoop soooooo low!
juz 2 get the info u needed u made 1 of my best friend a back-stabber!

dun u know tat it is juz enuf tat a 10 year-old boy likes me n now u wan 2 make a bigger fuss!!
i should hav neva met u in my school days!
yr juz a trouble maker!
n i should hav neva made a decision 2 come 2 tis school!
n wished tat i would neva hav met Mylin,Jasmine,Nima,Eeo Jun,Logesh,Siew Wen,MARTIN!!!,Darren,Desmond n many many more!!!

studies here is even more hectic than the studies i hav at MI!!!
n if i wouldn't hav move out from tat school!
i would not hav all tis probs n stress!
n i would not miz my frenz sooo much!!

well,it's already 2!!
n i'm still freaking pissed off!!
no words can describe how angry i am unto all of ya!

i'm SUPERBly glad i'm shifting schools next year n i would not hav 2 look at yr obnoxious,repugnant,vile,abominable n shameless faces ever again!

end of post
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p.s I HATE YOU BOTH THE MOST!!!
p.p.s YOU BOTH R FUCKING BITCHY BACK-STABBERS!!!


-Piggy going off 2 sleep coz it's already 2++ in the morning-

he won!!

Yippeee!!!!
KRIIIIISSSSS
AAALLLLLEEEENNNNN!!!
ok!!
American Idol!!
battle between Adam Lambert n Kris Allen!!
n Kris Allen WON!!!
WOOOHOOOO!!!!!!!

everlasting cries!!

hav u seen any1 CRY till no words can b said 2 keep them from being happy?
Pouring of blood out of the body!
Punching of fists on walls!
Screeches of a human through a pillow!
Breaking of boards in a secluded place!
Shouts of HELP in a bottomless pit!
Glasses breaking n human shouting!
Sobs,cries n the pleading of a small girl who juz lost her parents..


dun care bout the intro!
was being kinda random..
due to sum reli bog probs in wit my mum..
it will seriously b a never ending fight between my mum n me!
well...
tis was how it went..
*Slam*
went the door
wit my mum,my maid,my lil bro n me myself all went 2 the car!
as she started the engine of the car!
i had felt a bad feeling of going 2 school 2day!
but i still did coz i knew tat i hav 2 go 2 school!!
the 1st think tat my mum asked was
"Phyn,so,how what book are you in now?"
n i was liked err...my books still very low lar!!
n my mum asked 4 all the books n se saw 1 by 1 on the way 2 school..
n i got a real good major scolding from her
n from then on,..
i juz felt tears rolling down my eyes
n my mum juz looked bac n me n she saw me wit tears
usually ppl would like ask y
but 4 her is like she scolded me even more!
so i was like
speechless the whole way through
finally v reached school
i tried controlling my tears so tat it would stop n it did
but unfortunately it didn't work till i reached my class
then i started crying again..
it was juz a miserable day 4 me!
then rite after school i went straight 2 the back room of my mum's clinic!
n juz hide in there n start my homework from then on..
till i started tis post...

i'm actually suppose 2 b sleeping rite now!
but i'm juz too pissed off..
so i thought tat i hav 2 write tis post 2 release at least sum of my anger...

p.s i wrote tis at 2:00 in the morning!!

Frustration

Well...Frustration is reli overwhelming my whole body now!
messing up my feelings n stuff
which superbly sux!!
very very sad since the day it happened
my mind juz can't think properly at all...
exams not able 2 do properly..
been doing less test since 4eva!!!
wat am i do!!!
plus going china real real soon!!!
hehe...
the time is reducing day by day!!
n i'm still stuck in Grade 7!!
i reli do juz hope tat i would b able 2 finish all my grades real real soon!!!
i need 2 do sumthing
i need 2 find out wat is the reason i'm sooooo Super restless 4 the past 1 month...
izzit bcoz of him..
everytime i wanna study hard on tat day,it juz fails!!
wat am i gonna do!!
Arghh!!!
hate it like soooo Super much!!

am sooo super confused now!

so i'm juz gonna sleep my sorrows away!!!
n hopefully sum1 would help me 2 regain bac my old self by studying XXXXXtra super hard juz 2 go 2 Australia n get away from all tis mess!!!

nitey nitezz!!

-Piggy is going offline n Oink!Oink!-

Height!!

hey!!!
well...
i juz checked my height n i grew!!!
form 1 i was 148cm
DUM
DUM
DUUUMMM
n form 2(so called)
*DRUMROLLS*
i grew to a full 151cm
Hallelujah!!
Praise the Lord tat i finally grew!!

n God does answer yr prayers!!
been praying 4 soo long tat i will grow!
n he answered it!

he did make me grow!
i dun care abt the amount...
i'm juz happy tat i grew
hehe..

ok fine!i'm suppose 2 study again....
bye!!

-Piggy off-

The Hiding Place!

He ya'll
in serious trouble rite now!
I kinda bet my teacher tat i'll b able to finish my Language Arts 707 by Monday!
n like...
Now i'm in serious trouble!
coz i hav neva eva read tat book b4 in my entire life!
n the contents of my book is all about The Hiding Place!
n i hav no idea how 2 do it!
Sum1 please help me!!
I duno wat to do rite now!
n no1 has tat i know of has ever read tat book b4!!!

HOW
HOW
HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
HOW
H
O
W


ok!
i'm gonna get back 2 studying
c ya guyz!

The Truth.... Now i'm saying it...( to a close friend of mine )

Hey JK,here it goes
tis is 100% for you!
well,it's been Super long since v saw each other
i think abt 2 months++
but remember tat v would b able 2 hang out wit each other at camp
can't reli wait 4 u 2 come!
both of us have our up n downs n both of us would conquer it no matter wat!
coz our friendship would like 100% last 4eva!
n i reli do miss u lotz!
i miss u more than words can describe..

Times n Studies are getting harder n harder 4 u
n i will always b there to comfort u n lend a listening ear or a shoulder 2 cry on!
I'm yr built in best mate!

n i'll always b right here when u need me!
i hoped tat u hav already read my two earlier post!
coz i know tat i'll mean a whole bunch of stuff to a lot of ppl!

n it'll mean more 2 u n my other BFFL's

Maybe the fate of my life is all pass on to God ( who decides )

we'll plan out something... ok...
can't wait to meet u again....
my F_R_I_E_N_D.... JOLYN KHOO SHEN LING

sorry copied most of yr stuff...hehe..